I managed to get through the weekend. I dread this week. Tonight we are going to walk through the house and get the keys. The rest of the week workmen should be over fixing things specified in the contract. Our house is piled with boxes and broken-down furniture. Saturday I spent in a strange emotional state. Most of the time I reluctantly pakced (complaining the whole while). I did my best to procrastinate, but still managed to get the tasks done that I had told myself needed to be done.
Brutus did okay this weekend. He only eats chicken strips now. One nice thing is that for the last 2 nights he has been coming out of his nest in the hallway closet and sleeping with me in bed. I wonder if he is trying to tell me he needs me to help him because he is feeling real sick again. Today I even gave him some medicine.
I arrived to work and filled in my boss that I took Thursday off. I was so mad (underneath felt shame) that he said I shouldn't use sick leave but my annual leave. I told him I was in bed that day from being up all night with my cat. It's things like this that really ruin morale. If I feel like it falls under "sick" time, then what's it to him? Nice that he makes himself the target for my pent-up frustrations. The morale is low around the office anyhow. Maybe it is just a woman thing (I work with 4 men) but they didn't plan one thing for the holidays--not a potluck, gift exchange or dinner/lunch at a resturant. I know if I bring it up then I will be assigned to do it. Now I will (knowingly) bash men, please excuse this vent because for the most part I respect men but I can't separate these issues: men, just THESE men in my office, just a person, or me. It seems like they just don't care about anyone here. No one asks to talks about personal things, hense no support is given. Maybe because I am a women, I care about how people are coping and like to offer support and compassion. I think employees perform better when they are cared about and feel valued.
And I just put in 2 years of extension. I think I will just go into "protective mode" and be cordial but not open. I will be professional, but never share anything personally. It jsut seems so cold right now.
Posted by Krista at December 15, 2003 10:48 AM