Can you believe it? I had another sleepless night. I woke up at 2:30 a.m. (cat trying to get under the blanket) and couldn't go back to sleep at all. I laid there for a while, did deep breathing, imaging, petting cat etc. Then I went to get a drink and came back and my mind starting thinking all kinds of random thoughts: we better get winter tires for Guenter's car, maybe he can buy some now to fit his junker car (if they are the same size of the wheels) and use them on the new car he wants to buy; I think I'll put up a shelf over the window in the kitchen of the new house; when will the renters move out? What if it is March? What if they can't find another place that is comparable? I think can get extra boxes to start packing in that dumpster behind the gym. I need to dejunk more before we move--no sense in dragging useless stuff to the new house. I better stop at the Thrift store and pick up my consignment check soon. Tomorrow I need to bring home my stuff for my reconciliation of utility appointment. I have 3 clients scheduled for tomorrow.
If I don't get to sleep I won't be able to think clear. I will be a waste. Should I call in sick? No, they just did my appraisal, it would look bad. My nose is stuffy now. Maybe I am going to get a cold since I have not been getting enough sleep and my resistance is getting low. The last client appointment is with a mother that really is abrasive and I wonder how to guide the session. What I want to say is....what might be helpful...
It's now 4 a.m. Will I fall asleep at 5? I have to get up at 6. I won't work out. I will sleep a little. Should I go to the spare room and read? I think I am getting tired. Maybe I'll fall asleep now. Besides, my eyes have been closed and my body resting all this time, it's just my mind that will be fatigued. How do mothers do it that have to get up with newborns infants? Will we ever have a child? We missed "doing it" on my fertile time this month. If we do have a baby I won't work, could be make it financially. I think I need to keep working. Maybe this is for the best--not having kids. We have so much freedom. We don't have to worry about the money kids suck out of you. I wouldn't have to worry about what the world will be like when my child is older. I wonder what the future will be like...
ON AND ON IT WENT UNTIL 6 a.m. and I woke up my husband and went on with my day.
I won't be able to blog until Monday. See you then. Have an enjoyable weekend!
Posted by Krista at October 30, 2003 10:56 AMWell, I can tell you that you weren't alone . . . I woke up at 4:45 that morning . . . But thankfully, my thoughts were pretty calm.
Posted by: Melanie at October 30, 2003 02:08 PMNot getting enough sleep is a killer, but as far as being a mum and having sleepless nights is concerned, once your baby is settled ie wakes, feeds, sleeps, it's not too bad. You get into like automatic pilot...get up, feed, go back to bed and back to sleep. Also, DH fed baby for night feeds on the weekend to share the load. I had to bottlefeed so this was an option. It's about the only "good" thing about bottlefeeding. There's good in everything if you just look for it.
Posted by: Anne at October 31, 2003 05:50 AM